I’ve come to the conclusion that I think I’d like to own my own business.
I remember, when I was younger, that was something I really wanted to do. I wanted to own a Book/Stationary Shop with a little cafe. In the cafe they could read their purchased books or see if they liked a book before purchasing. They could do some writing in a cozy setting with a warm beverage. Study for classes, use it as a meeting place. There would also be posters showing local events, and you know I’d run some sort of monthly book club. Now I’d imagine I’d provide Wi-Fi and outlets for people to charge their phones, laptops or tablets as well.
One problem: A venture like that I’m competing with the likes of W.H.Smiths, Waterstones, Amazon and Kindles! All of which I use frequently. So the idea of a Book/Stationary Shop is pretty much out the window.
This whole idea may seem rather out of the blue, but lately I just keep thinking: I wish I owned my own business, that way no one but me could own my time.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I have no issues with my current job. It’s a great job where I work with lovely people. It’s also a job that actually makes difference in some ways, and yet I can’t help but think: is this what I’m going to do for the rest of my life?
Doesn’t matter how long you’ve been in a job, or the stage of your career, surely we all have doubts?
Part of me is just afraid I’m going to wake up 20 years down the line and still be exactly where I am now, only in my 40s and wondering what the hell just happened.
Don’t get me wrong, I know that owning your own business is hard. I have several family members who own businesses and a friend who previously owned a business. It’s tough and I know you end up spending even more time, energy and resources to make it run successfully and efficiently.
But then I think, isn’t it kind worth it? To know that you’re investing in yourself?
Who knows. This is probably one of those ‘the grass is always greener’ things, but it’s getting more and more tempting – if I had a clue as to what kind of business I’d actually want to run!
I know that I’m very fortunate and I don’t mean to come off as complaining about my current work situation or anything, because there’s really nothing wrong with it. I just have some things to work out for myself but wanted to share my thoughts with you all.
All I know is that sometimes I feel like I’m suffocating lately. It’s bewildering. I’m restless and I feel the need to move.
The only question, is where?